I'm kind of having a down day. Nothing is WRONG, but I just feel "off". Probably a combination of not feeling 100% physically and being slightly stressed out with all the turmoil going on right now.
I feel like I'm letting my kids down by not being the fun, involved mom who gets out the paints, markers, or books - who has picnics in the living room - or who can even just calmly do homework with her kindergartener...
I know I can't really compare myself to the mom that I was when I only had 2 kids. 4 kids is different, and that's ok. But I really start to beat myself up that I don't do all of the fun things that I did when it was just Bryson and Meg. I do think that part of it is that I know that I'm capable of being better or more than what I am now, and that's amping up the guilt factor. Acknowledging that I am opting out and being much lazier as a mother is not easy. However, it IS going to be the motivating factor in some changes I'm going to implement in my life.
I AM going to be more involved with my kids. I will NOT rely on the t.v. so much anymore. I will encourage creativity in them and myself. I will accept that messes are inevitable, and I will not let that keep me from doing some fun activities with them.
So, I guess my purpose in posting this is to get some encouragement from my friends and family out there. Just tell me I'm not failing my little ones and they will not be permanently damaged from the neglect...
I feel like I'm letting my kids down by not being the fun, involved mom who gets out the paints, markers, or books - who has picnics in the living room - or who can even just calmly do homework with her kindergartener...
I know I can't really compare myself to the mom that I was when I only had 2 kids. 4 kids is different, and that's ok. But I really start to beat myself up that I don't do all of the fun things that I did when it was just Bryson and Meg. I do think that part of it is that I know that I'm capable of being better or more than what I am now, and that's amping up the guilt factor. Acknowledging that I am opting out and being much lazier as a mother is not easy. However, it IS going to be the motivating factor in some changes I'm going to implement in my life.
I AM going to be more involved with my kids. I will NOT rely on the t.v. so much anymore. I will encourage creativity in them and myself. I will accept that messes are inevitable, and I will not let that keep me from doing some fun activities with them.
So, I guess my purpose in posting this is to get some encouragement from my friends and family out there. Just tell me I'm not failing my little ones and they will not be permanently damaged from the neglect...
and since I forgot yesterday,
I'm grateful for:
1) a beautiful fall!!!
2) good books
3) faith and hope
I'm grateful for:
1) a beautiful fall!!!
2) good books
3) faith and hope
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Not to say that I don't still struggle - you know I do. That's why we have girls night. You are more amazing than you know and your two youngest don't know that they are missing the zoo or whatever. All they know is the get to be with you!